Hesitating...

Hesitating...

yeap im hesitating...whether to move my blog....im not sure....too many memories here...plus its always been my style to move my blog to a new link whenever a chapter of my life closes, or in layman's term, whenever a relationship of mine ends...thus i have different links for different bf...

but many factors stopping me right now, unlike in the past where changing links could be so easy. Firstly, i've registered this blog link in many advertising, affiliate and networking site, thus changing my link would mean i have to update many other sites, and im pretty lazy to do so~ Secondly, i really like this link alot, thats y i used it in the first place! lastly, i dont have time to start up everything from scratch again!

faints..

but theres way too many memories and photos in here, and i dont think i wanna start blogging on the new journey or chapter that im embarking on right here.. theres still alot of stuff i wanna blog, but dont think they are appropriate right now, and so i decided to hold on to those for now, and will blog bout it next time when i've decided on what to do....

probably...i may move some of my post that holds lotsa memories into another blog, so i can continue using this blog link...mayb....just mayb..... =)

in anyway stay tuned!

Thanks to all my dear friends...

Thanks to all my dear friends...

this post is dedicated specially to all my dear friends!

Thanks for being there for me when im down, thanks for the encouragements and the advices, thanks for calling, msn and sms me to make sure im alright, thanks for all your support that helped me alot through my tough times....

THANKS SO MUCH! Really appreciate everything! =)

When one door of happiness closes, another opens...

When one door of happiness closes, another opens...

as mentioned....alot had happened.....i was quite discomposed and didnt know where i should start blogging from...

but i guess im ready now...to blog it all out....

over the weeks....me and stan were in a struggle....i had initiated a heart to heart conversation with him...and so we set a date and went to have sushi at Changi Airport T2, Sakae Sushi, to have our dinner (which turned out to be our last meal together)...after which we head back to his place to chat....we poured out....the tears, the hurts that was inflicted over the 2 years...it wasnt easy for me and i had to fight back my tears...i shant go into details on our conversation....but i really wished that we had this conversation a long time ago....but i guess it was a lil too late...the pain was way too much for me to handle...and i couldnt bring myself to forgive nor forget...

i spend my last night at his place and send him to work in the morning...

subsequent days were a struggle for me as he tries to win me back....i cried almost every single day just thinking bout it.....but i know my heart can no longer be mended...damage is done...crack is already there....even if we were to continue...those cracks will nv be mended...and i just dont wanna be hurt again....im scared...really scared...cuz i dont think i can be this strong again the next time round....it wasnt an easy decision for me to let go a 2yrs r/s....it wasnt easy for me to get over.....it wasnt easy for me to pluck up enough courage and determination to speak up...it took me months just to finally make up my mind to decide and to have enough determination to let this go....

as much as he is hurt....i was terribly hurt too.....

and at the end of the day.....it was all over....it ended....the door closed.... there is no more turning back.....

i dont know if i'll ever regret this decision i made...but whats done is done....

as the saying goes....when one door of happiness closes...another opens....and i really wish this other door that i choose would be the right one where i wont have to exit anymore....

my sincere blessings to him...its sad things ended quite badly and we couldnt even be friends anymore...i had longed for it to end nicely and peacefully....but i guess nothing is perfect and i cant always have it my way...thus i can only wish the best for him.....

bye my once upon a time love..... thanks for the beautiful memories....

sorry for the lack of updates

sorry for the lack of updates

alot have happened and i don't even know where i should start blogging from.

will try to put them in words and blog soon. stay tuned! :)

updates for last friday to sunday~

updates for last friday to sunday~

been busy over the wkends and these days been busy with the housechores and all, and im simply lazy to blog as well..haha! thus the lack of updates~

anyway just a quick run thru ba~

Friday 30july09
i took a train and changed a bus down to stanley's office to wait for him to knock off. after which we walked over to bendemeer for dinner where we had duck noodle that tasted quite good. after which we went down to the Indoor stadium and waited for some of our CG members to attend the Festival of Praise 2009 Day 1. the place was alrdy quite packed and there were alrdy very long queues when we reach. anyway the service was good apart from the splitting headache i was having! =( after service he send me home and i went to slp shortly after popping my panadols.

Saturday 1aug09
stanley came by my place with a box of mooncakes for my parents. haha well its definitely way too early for it. but anyway he had wanted to help his friend who was selling and so bought them so soon. he then took a short nap at my place and played with Muffin while we waited for time to past. after which we went downstairs to have dinner and head down to the indoor stadium yet again for Festival of Praise 2009 Day 2. my splitting headache was back again and thus i had to pop yet another 2 panadols midway of the service! =( after which we head back to his place for the night.


darling muffin with his new furcut!


us with muffin. :)


inside the indoor stadium! with stanley and jospehine!


Sunday 2aug09
woke up at 5.30am!! had honey stars for breakfast and went down to the Indoor stadium yet again for CityHarvest 20th Anniversary celebration!! reached at 6+am and queued to get in. service was awesome and it ended only at 3+pm! gosh we were extremely tired, hot, and hungry after which! the weather was killing us the moment we step out of the stadium! faints~ and that caused stanley to be super grouchy as he sent me home. we ended up in silence thruout the whole journey. sigh. anyway upon reaching home, i was suppose to tk a afternoon nap. but i couldnt really slp in the day as the sky was way tooo bright, my whole family is home and thus the house was really bustling with noise from all the talking, games, song and tv! as for dinner went to meet my friends at ECP food centre to eat and after which played pool, catched some bears, went to the arcade and simply slacked around ECP before eventually going for supper at Changi Village where we had nasi lemak and some desserts! Yummy! =)



random photos taken inside the indoor stadium! =)


my bears~ from left to right, TattyBear aka Me To You Bear, Pink Panther and Carebear!
i love carebear! Tattybear was caught by them, while the Carebear and Pink panther was caught by me! i got lucky and manage to grab both together though i was only aiming for the carebear!! haha! Carebears and TattyBears are LOVE~ =) So cute right! =p

and i just noticed this super huge blueblack on my thigh!! plus its kinda swollen and painful!! sobs! dont even rmbr when i knock into anything. my guess is i knock into a chair on one of the days at indoor stadium...but i was probably rushing so didnt tk note of it! =( disfigured le!!

i've got alot to blog....

i've got alot to blog..... but am just too busy or tired to do so...plus way too many photos...

give me a lil time to sort them out k!

stay tuned! =)